I'm sorry that I haven't been as active as usual on here (and won't be for quite a while). With 'active' I especially mean in commenting on other people's art, reacting on journals, keeping up to date with wishing everyone a proper happy birthday, getting proper birthday presents for friends etc. Do rest assured that I am still interested and that I do still read your journals and watch your work and root for all the progress you're making with art and life in general and that I'll try to make up for it. Still, I felt that I owed my long time friends here an explanation, so here it goes. On the 23rd of September I lost my grandmother very unexpectedly due to a stupid accident. She fell down the stairs in the middle of the night, which resulted in severe head trauma and two separate instances of intracranial hemorrhage. She hasn't woken up from the accident and died the next day. The sad thing is that my grandfather saw it happen. In fact, he had just cautioned her to wait until he had switched on the lights, so she could go down more safely. Needless to say, we were all somewhat traumatized by what happened. (Although, in the end, it might have been a good thing of some sort, cause she didn't suffer for long and I found out afterwards that she'd just been diagnosed with acute leukemia, which would have meant months of suffering ahead if she hadn't passed away that day.) But as far as the situation goes for me, I have always had a severe problem with dealing with death in general as well as the prospect of dying, and then I mean a lot more than the average person. I have managed to get it sort of under control, but I don't need much to get me back there again. The additional problem is, I am currently in the final stage of my PhD studies, meaning that I am writing out my thesis on a very strict deadline (4 pages a day), and can't give myself any time off to cool down without giving me more stress afterwards. And if it was just that, it'd still be sort of manageable, but I also have loads of administrative stuff to take care of, articles to complete in between writing the PhD, giving presentations and trying to find a job for after the PhD. And my brain and concentration skills aren't being cooperative at all. In short, it's taking pretty much all I've got to not get behind on my work at the moment. I'll probably still keep uploading stuff though, cause art makes me calm and I'll try to be as active and responsive as I can manage. Thank you all very much for your understanding.
I'd like to dedicate the feature below to the memory of my grandmother. It is based on the song Turn Loose the Mermaids by Nightwish, which was one of the songs I chose to be played at her funeral. You can listen to it here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJS5g4… while watching the feature.The images match the lyrics.